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Do you not see how much you hurt me? how much shutting me out hurts? Do you not see?
How can you not see? and if you do why keep doing it? why keep shutting me out.
Im so bloody worried about you! and you can say 'don't worry' all you like but i know you better than you think. Alot better than you think. You know why becase we're similar. We do exactly the same things. In more ways than one.
I've got people telling me that i can't take your hurt anymore. But i can't just leave you. I just can't. It would kill me. I know it would.
Your the only thing thats kept me here and you know what will happen if you do anything. When i go to self harm i stop because of you. Well that didn't work this time. Mangaged to block you out of my head this time. All i thought about was the pain.
I can't take this emotional pain anymore. I seriously can't but you continue to hurt me. Some of the time you have no idea your doing it! that wouldn't matter would it. I guess all that matters to me is that your allright. Fuck what i feel. Its better off i get hurt right? So why don't ya keep on going the way you are. Then maybe i can reach that date?
Stupid mistake telling you anyway. The only date i want and i was stupid enough to tell you!! and what i had planned. Well i think ima change that. Maybe bring it forward.
But whatever.
Hurt me again, come on!! im use to it by now!! push me over the edge!! i want you to do it!! the only person who seems to be able to hurt me so damn much is you!! but i can't just not talk to you!! i can't just leave you!! some im fucking stuck in the middle with no way out!! so how about you push me to the edge so there is a way out?
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How can you not see? and if you do why keep doing it? why keep shutting me out.
Im so bloody worried about you! and you can say 'don't worry' all you like but i know you better than you think. Alot better than you think. You know why becase we're similar. We do exactly the same things. In more ways than one.
I've got people telling me that i can't take your hurt anymore. But i can't just leave you. I just can't. It would kill me. I know it would.
Your the only thing thats kept me here and you know what will happen if you do anything. When i go to self harm i stop because of you. Well that didn't work this time. Mangaged to block you out of my head this time. All i thought about was the pain.
I can't take this emotional pain anymore. I seriously can't but you continue to hurt me. Some of the time you have no idea your doing it! that wouldn't matter would it. I guess all that matters to me is that your allright. Fuck what i feel. Its better off i get hurt right? So why don't ya keep on going the way you are. Then maybe i can reach that date?
Stupid mistake telling you anyway. The only date i want and i was stupid enough to tell you!! and what i had planned. Well i think ima change that. Maybe bring it forward.
But whatever.
Hurt me again, come on!! im use to it by now!! push me over the edge!! i want you to do it!! the only person who seems to be able to hurt me so damn much is you!! but i can't just not talk to you!! i can't just leave you!! some im fucking stuck in the middle with no way out!! so how about you push me to the edge so there is a way out?
Whatever