Hi, I'm new here. Just wanted to give a brief intro & "hello". Do you really wanna know me? Many think I'm complicated & difficult. I often don't know even what to say, but gonna try if you'll listen. Thanks. I've struggled w/ depression much of my life. Lots of things added to it....abuse, family history, bad relationships, being a loner, being made fun of, ect. I won't go into it all here...maybe more later. I've been hospitalized before...been on many different meds...therapy (group & individual). Have attempted suicide before & am considering now (have method, gathering means, making final arrangements), but am not sure. I have a cat who I love & is very attached to me but doesn't get along well w/others. My faith & fear of hell hold me back. But, don't know if I can keep going on. Will things ever get better? Will I ever be happy? The promise of tomorrow seems less & less. I also fight an eating disorder, PTSD, insomnia, fear, & anxiety. But, am tired of fighting. I don't want to go on, but there'a a part of me that just isn't quite ready to let go. I'm afraid...things are getting overwhelming. Ok...enough for now. So, do you really wanna know me? Thanks!