Do you think he ever looked back to all he did and thought that it was a terrible mistake? Do you think he felt any remorse? I only realized what he had done to me years later. It was too late. I just remembered the pain, then I started having dreams that made me recall it. I don't understand. Why is someone capable of doing something like this? Didn't he feel he was doing something completely wrong, something cruel? Didn't he ever look back to what he did and wished he could turn back time to fix it? How could he be so...emotionless? I swear this man made my childhood dreams turn into nightmares. I never clearly understood what he did and why he did, but as I grew older I fully understood it. And these days, I recalled all of it. And now I'm scared of being touched. I'm filled with disgust and it's all his fault. I really wish sometime he looks back to what he did and curse himself endlessly. And that's another reason why I want nothing to do with life and the pain it brings.