I feel defective. I really don't feel I have the same rights as others to pursue things. What I mean but that is basically my rights. I was a kid taken from my home, later an abusive boyfriend I left, hurt me again and just other abusive stuff in my life. Am I defective? Why do people want to hurt me? I don't feel I encourage it. I'm never mean to anyone. Please don't say the cycle of abuse thing because I really think that's a pile of BS. I know what is right and wrong. I just don't know what it is about me that is so different that people want to hurt me or simply don't care if they do hurt me.