Dying I mean. You hear it hurts a lot like people are trying to discourage it but I mean if life is so painful if you have to live knowing what i do maybes it's not so bad ? I'm a no body a worthless f*g who's own family hates him and the worst part is I don't care. Why would I want the love of a fu*king old man who's the biggest coward in the world. A fu*king b*tch of a mother who shields her favorite child and then throws the rest away or a sister who's just a pity worthless victim who's happy just sitting there ? I've tried so hard to make it work but I'm nothing I'm nothing nothing nothing. I can't even think of what I am anymore. I hate my guts I just want them out of me I want them spilled out on the floor where I belong I shouldn't be alive I'm the mistake I'm a mistake no one wanted me no one wants mez it can't hurt as much as this I mean it's just a <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>? The walls are closeting in on me my family wants me gonna I want to be gonna I hate my sister for being raped isn't that horrible I hate her because she gets all the love she gets everything and I'm thrown away like aways the trash I don't even deserve that I'm nothing why can't i do it. I want it I want it more then anything in my whole life I need to end it now I can't make I can't make to 20 I'm nothing fag fuck filth flith flith flith !!!! I hate them I hate them I hate myself I hate everything I need to go away I need to go I need it I need it I need it !!!!!! I don't know if I want it to hurt. I mean I need to be punished I'm worthless and I need to pay for it I need to know that god really hates me and his not just toying with me like a puppet on a string but at the same time I'm scared I'm so scared I'm scared if I feel anymore pain I won't be able to feel anything else what if that's all there is for me is pain what if ending it doesn't even matter what it I'm still in pain ? Do you think it hurts ?