Sometimes I crave the company of other people. I want to go out with them and have fun. But on the rare occasions that I actually get to do that I get really nervous and anxious, and after a while I just want to be left alone. Sometimes I feel the safest in my bedroom all alone, but I want to be social. I think I've been on my own without friends for so long that when I do venture out I hate all the people around me.