Ok...this thread is going to provoke some controversy. :unsure: A little background history on Matty...:smile: For many, many years, since I was about 17 I've lived with depression, and for the longest time I simply fought a silent war between myself and "it". A war that I still havent won. For years I didnt get help, I didnt even think about getting help, I just presumed this was me, and my lot in life. A lot of my problems are based around fear. Much of that fear was created, and nourished, in my school years where I was treated as a leper by the vast majority of people, for a variety of reasons. My relationship with my father has played a central role, and my hopelessness around woman...has also played another key role. When I went to Uni things were somewhat differant, I had quite a few friends and did things socially, but there was still this feeling of being "differant", of being "inferior". Combine that with my anxiety and natural shyness around people, and you have an explanation for why I have lived in isolation for a good proportion of my life. The last few months on this site has been quite a journey for me. Ive confronted my past, and yes I still live with it every single day, it still tortures me, "the lost years", "the wasted years". I also think about the future, sometimes positive...sometimes negative, but what I can say, is that I have taken some steps to overcome my problems. - Seeing the psych - Taking medication - Getting out more - Exercise. Some of these things are recent developments, some of them ive been doing for quite a while now, and some of them ive been doing off and on over the last few months. Please, PLEASE dont take YEARS like I have before you starting getting some help...its time that you can never, ever get back. :sad: So my question to fellow SF'ers is. 1) Do you want to get better? 2) Are you actively trying to get better? The poll is multiple choice. For example you might select option (4) and (10) 4) Yes, Seen a doc and on meds 10) Yes, Ive tried some/all of those measures, and it certainly helps PLEASE BE HONEST WITH YOUR ANSWERS, PLEASE SELECT THE MOST APPROPRIATE ONE!