.. I guess I want to stop. Infact I do want to stop (at this moment at least) but it seems impossible. How can I stop something that I love? How can I stop doing something I've done for over three years? It's part of my life. I get pleasure looking at the injuries I've inflicted upon myself. The deeper the better. The bigger the burn the better. I cut, stratch, burn and sometimes, in frustration, I bash my head against the wall/punch things. It's weird that something 'self destructive' can help more than human love. How can a knife offer more than people? At the same time it's horrible. Destroying your own flesh, having scars, being secretive. Since I've been cutting, I've almost become like an addict. I started off using fairly blunt objects and I progressed onto blades and knives. I hate myself for it, but I can't stop. How can you stop something you love? Something that loves you back.