My doctors prescribed me with anti schizoid meds called Olanzapine which can cause weight gain, breast growth, uncontrollable eye movement, slurred speech, prolonged and painful erections, spasms and my favourite of all, ''Sudden Unexplained Death.'' I have spent so long alone that now I have an over active imagination to keep me sane but my doc wants to slow my thoughts down. To drug me up. It is not like they can provide any answers to the moral dilemnas I am constanly burdened with but instead they want me to just stop questioning and accept the unfortunate life that the dice of fate came up with. They don't care. I can't cope and I feel like if I refuse to take the meds that can potentially kill me they will just say that there is nothing they can do.