I went the doctors for my throat infection/tonisilites..there for all to see was BPD, Suicide tendancies, suicide attempts, depression, anxiety, oh and not forgetting Citropram....I want to see all my doctor records from birth to now, but apprentely I might not be mentally stable enough and they can refuse. Seeing them was the last bit of hope I had and now that's going to be taken away from me. Please someone tell me why I am still breathing, why I am trying to move forward because at the moment all I can see is nothing, not a thing. I am so angry at these labels..they might as well put FREAK..DEAD, SUICIDE. cause thats' how I feel I am so angry with myself, and the world. I am angry and want to put 2 fingers up, get in my coffin and burn. burn all my pathetic existance.