New to SF reached the end of my road and it lead me here. I am suicidal and not alone by the looks of it. My past has shaped my future as much as I would like to deny it. The burden of carrying my secrets have eaten me alive I have managed to alienate most of the human race and al that is left of me is an empty shell. After reading some of the posts I have come to two choices I either give up blow my brains out or I grab some of the hope you seem to get from the posts. I have never reached out or talked to anybody and at this point I am pretty sure no one cares and that this is a total waste of time. But in spite of that here is my post let me know if anybody cares and if telling my secrets to the world might give me some light at the end of my tunnel.