My boyfriend tried to commit suicide 7 years ago and handed me a suicide note. I was 14 at the time. He slit his wrist but survived. I should be happy, right? No. I've been suffering with the thought of his wrist and the note and the fact he tried to kill himself almost every day. I almost mourn as if I had lost him. Has anybody almost lost, but mourn the same like me? Is this normal?