does anybody not eat as a form of self harm??

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by downunder, Dec 15, 2008.

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  1. downunder

    downunder Well-Known Member

    Just wondering if anyone uses a form of not eating as self harm. Whereas you guys get scars and see blood coming out, I see bones starting to protrude.
     
  2. daredhead

    daredhead Well-Known Member

    I used to starve myself when I felt really bad. It felt good not eating, but after I realized what I was doing to myself, I gradually stopped. I still don't know how I did it.
     
  3. aoeu

    aoeu Well-Known Member

    I sort of do. I tend to skip more meals when I'm being self-destructive. Drinking, cutting, and skipping meals tend to go in a group. I was cutting yesterday, and today, and only had one meal today. I haven't had breakfast all week.
     
  4. wheresmysheep

    wheresmysheep Staff Alumni

    Yes i do this. For me food is comfort, and when i dont eat and i get a hunger pang it really does hurt its like a stab in the stomach. But as well as this i do many other forms of self harm that i am aware of but i cant stop. Its about the control i think....
     
  5. Nyu

    Nyu Well-Known Member

    It can go either way for me. sometimes, i overeat to feel better, but when im at my WORSE, ill just not eat at all. never lasted long enough to be anorexic though.
     
  6. crookxshanks

    crookxshanks Well-Known Member

    if i find that im not in a place to cut then ill find myself in a place where i just dont want to eat and food looks so foreign to me that i wonder why the hell all this stuff is cluttering up my cupboards
     
  7. ~Tosh~

    ~Tosh~ Forum Buddy

    If i can get away with it, i tend not to eat, but if its a family sit down at the table, i have no choice. at the minute im on one meal a day or less.. depends if im in the mood to eat or not... otherwise i have people watching me eat to make sure ive eaten it :dry:
     
  8. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    Yea, same here. I have a small dinner, so they don't start to say "Omfg why are you not eating anything?"

    I stopped eating a while ago, and now I hardly eat anything =/
     
  9. Lucie

    Lucie Well-Known Member

    A bit depressed and i like to binge eat, very depressed and i wont eat although i dont keep it up for long because i'm already tall and thin and looking underweight scares me a little.
     
  10. jameslyons

    jameslyons Well-Known Member

    When depressed I get by on one meal a day.

    It's not intentional, as much as it is a passive effect of depression.

    When I went to the hospital I realized I had dropped eight pounds over the past three weeks.

    But when my parents came up they took us out to dinner. So I became stuffed on Shrimps, duck, lamb, and other treats I haven't enjoyed in a while. Sometimes it takes somebody to stick a plat in front of me and say, "eat".
     
  11. mourningseraph

    mourningseraph Well-Known Member

    I do. I deny myself food as a form of punishment. I only allow myself to eat if I feel like I've earned it or did something to deserve food.
     
  12. weltunter

    weltunter Member

    Yes, I don't eat either as a form of punishment. I hate this body so much, I just want it to die. Not eating brings me a tiny step closer to that.
     
  13. downunder

    downunder Well-Known Member

    welhunter I am with you. Sometimes when I feel dizzy through not eating I feel closer to being there and feel happier, then people see me and get worried but I can't hide it because it shows in my face and neck.
     
  14. blade

    blade Well-Known Member

    yeah, i used to do that i still do, i only eat when im really, really hungry, other wise, dont touch a thing for days!
     
  15. thedeafmusician

    thedeafmusician Staff Alumni

    Yeah. I do that. You can't tell though, I don't gain or lose weight easily. And every so often my body can't quite take it and screams 'food!' to me and so I end up eating lots and lots and lots.

    TDM
     
  16. faeriegirl

    faeriegirl Active Member

    Oh yes I do this. I think this year, instead of cutting, I've been denying myself food. Its been going on for a few months now. I've lost 30 lbs.
     
  17. Rachel123

    Rachel123 Well-Known Member

    Denying myself of food is one of my ways to self harm. When I get dizzy, headachey and my stomach feels like it's eating itself...It just feels better.
    I am definately not underweight but I've lost about 10 pounds since I've been depressed.
    I still eat. But it's usually not until I'm starving.
     
  18. downunder

    downunder Well-Known Member

    Rachel, i thinki am similar to you in that when i feel dizzy i feel that i have arrived. but now when i eat i feel bloated and i am getting shortness of my breath whilst at rest occasionally i have to take 2 breaths in instead of the usual one in and one out.
     
  19. SOL1

    SOL1 Member

    I don't know if it's self-harm or not, but I used to not eat at all when I got depressed, really sick and tired of life. I went a week before I had the urge to eat anything, I past out three times during that week and ended up skipping a lot of school. (This was like eight-nine years ago.)

    It still happens every now and then, might go a day or two, maybe even three or four, but I end up eating not because I want to, but because I preform like crap at work.
     
  20. Inque

    Inque Member

    I do this all the time. That empty feeling, when you start to feel dizzy and floaty. It's a nice buffer between you and the rest of the world. When I'm severely depressed I'll eat just enough to stay on my feet. A few crackers and a bottle of water every other day. Something like that.

    Speaking of which, I'm doing that right now.
    I used to love holidays so much.
    I feel like that's been robbed from me.
     
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