I often think of suicide and know I’ve done so as a coping mechanism but I now sometimes worry that I’ve been just telling myself it’s ok and worry that I will just act and not let myself think it through. Does anyone else think like this at all? Does anyone think that it’s a positive to ignore these thoughts or is there another way I should be engaging with them. I can honestly say if I didn’t have pets I would die tommorow and that living doesn’t interest me much. I try to keep hope but it’s hard. Ironically though my fur babies are so good for me but did stress me a lot with worry so I don’t really even know if I would be enter without them or not lol. I’m trying to stay positive and hope that things will get better but they don’t and I feel stupid sometimes for continuing. Anyway I have a psych appointment coming up real soon so fingers crossed.