Usually I don't remember my dreams when I wake up in the morning, but recently I've been remembering more of them and seeming to have more intense dreams and dreams that most people would find disturbing. This started this summer, probably around when I got really depressed and agitated and was constantly thinking about killing myself, but before I started taking meds. Then just a few weeks ago it got much worse again. I still get really agitated sometimes, but it's only every now and then, like when I'm extremely stressed about something, and all other times I'm just depressed, so I'm not sure if the sole cause of these dreams is agitation. My dreams a lot of times are bizarre and don't make a lot of sense, and then there are also dreams in which I get hurt or die, whether I'm hurt or killed by myself or someone else. Most people would probably find these dreams disturbing if I told them about them, but I guess it doesn't bother me because I already think about (and do) harm myself and think about suicide. But for the past couple of nights, I have had dreams that did really upset me. The worst one was last night. I was at home, and my 19 year old sister was sitting in the chair in the family room watching TV, and I just started beating her like a maniac, mostly in the head, for no apparent reason. She was crying her eyes out and screaming but I kept beating her. I cried when I woke up and I feel like crying just thinking about it. I love my sister, I'm not angry with her, I would never beat her, so this dream in particular made me really upset. I'm sorry this was so long, but has anyone else noticed an increase in disturbing dreams while depressed? Or does anyone know of anything that would help with this? I don't mind dreaming about death, but there are so many times I cry myself to sleep because I'm upset or lonely or sad, I really don't need to wake up crying and feeling upset.