I have them all the time but I would never follow through with them. My fantasies get all elaborate too. Like just today, I was thinking that if I'd ever get raped, I'd be cruelly laughed at by the world. Then I'd commit suicide and my brother would get revenge for me in the worst way possible. But that's so unrealistic and evil. Why should my brother have to do something evil just to avenge me? I wouldn't want him to murder anyone. I get really weird fantasies like this all the time. Like, sometimes I'll imagine myself getting treated like absolute shit, so I'll pull a gun on someone in my mind. Or I'd commit suicide or something like that. I imagine some pretty weird shit and I'm thinking that I should most definitely quit that. I don't really want to hurt anyone or see anyone harmed because of me. Perhaps because of my imagination I expect to get treated like garbage though. It happened all the time in high school.