It's been 5 years now, since I "got over" anorexia, basically my parents force fed me and made sure i didn't throw up. and now I am eating meals and have returned to a "safer" weight.
but still when I eat, the feeling I have is GUILT GUILT GUILT!!
What's strange is that now I seem to have grown an addiction to junk foods, like chocolate, coffee, pizza and chips-- I can eat them with no guilt (even though I know they are bad for you),
but when ever I have foods other than junk, like sandwiches, soups, etc, I feel extremely guilty afterwards and feel like I have to stay up until the fullness disappears or throw it up.
but still when I eat, the feeling I have is GUILT GUILT GUILT!!
What's strange is that now I seem to have grown an addiction to junk foods, like chocolate, coffee, pizza and chips-- I can eat them with no guilt (even though I know they are bad for you),
but when ever I have foods other than junk, like sandwiches, soups, etc, I feel extremely guilty afterwards and feel like I have to stay up until the fullness disappears or throw it up.