I havent been diagnosed with it or anything, because im too scared to go to my doctor as when i went to her immediately after the rape she laughed at me and told me to get over it (shes suspended at the moment, but im afraid other docs at the same surgery will react badly aswell),, but looking at all the symptoms is like reading a book of how my life has been for the past 10 months, and im sure i have it, seriously theres 3 stages to the rape trauma syndrome and i can see clear as day where i went through stage one, and looking at the symptoms im still stuck in stage 2. I was just wondering if anyone else has this? Or has ever had it? Please dont tell me im stupid, im afraid people will tell me its not a real illness, but it feels so so real to me, my lifes just gone to shit since then, alot of my behaviours look like theyve got better from the outside but thats because ive been closing in on myself and hiding them better. I havent spoken to anyone about it for months and months so i think the people around me have forgotten or just think im over it when im really not. Sorry im babbling on now, but if anyone has got it, could you reply or pm me?