I was having major suicidal thoughts today... I had a plan and everything, I wasn't sure when I was going to do it but I was going to make it look like an accident. I was thinking about making everyone think I seem really happy and I was thinking about buying a puppy and then doing it the next day so that it looks completely shocking that I'm dead because I had just bought this puppy. (BTW my mom would take the puppy if I died so it would still have a good home) I don't know if there allowed to say how we would do it so I won't, I'll keep that out but I had a good plan. Then I started thinking about people in my family and then DEATH. What happens when you die? Are people who really kill themselves doomed for all eternity? It kind of scared me and I stopped thinking about it. Although i still want to do it, i'm just scared of what happens when DEATH comes.