Does life ever seem to get any better? December of 2006 my partner of 12 years died due to the flesh eating bacteria. 9 months later I was involved in an accident that killed a 17 yr old. October of last year I lost my job. I got evicted, my car repossessed and attempted suicide. Right out of the hospital I was put in a group home for people with a mental illness. I'm still here and nothing changes. I'm no better off then I was before, when my partner died I died, my just hasn't realized it yet. I'm tired of the misery and I'm just ready to die.