Death of a loved one.... Does it ever get easier? Some say yes! I've heard that many times in my life but I have to say no on my end. It's been 20 years since my true love committed suicide we were young back then. Her death feels like yesterday. She was 17 when she took her own life with a heroine overdose. Amazing how the years have flown by but the memories are still open wounds. I have been a member here ( this forum )for a long time but only posted 14 times prior to tonight. I have been feeling uneasy about drugs and suicide. I'm not saying that I want either but my thoughts have been on both. I can't shake this feeling inside of me. I talked to my therapist last week about my troubles but no medication can take this pain I feel locked up inside of me. She can only talk she really can't relate.