Does it ever just creep up on anybody? (Bulimia)

[A_pixie]

I've been bulimic since I was 15.

Fast-forward seven years... still have it.

It got to a point where it was every single day it made me ill.

I thought I was cured until last week. I ate something very fattening and my body went into a panic and I started gagging, I knew if I didn't throw up I'd have a big panic attack.

Has this ever happened to anyone else with bulimia? It comes back to haunt me here and then

 

[plates]

Yeah, I know I need to stop myself falling if I feel myself falling down that hole - usually I've learnt to really listen to myself better. So I note that I'm usually feeling very low when I'm going to b/p and I'm feeling desperate/triggered. It could be for so many reasons though- like you say panic/anxiety. And I try to deal with those feelings another way. It would come up , like you say 'out of the blue' in the past but I've just learnt over the year to notice when these feelings come up and why they are coming up and maybe letting myself do it for a while knowing that I'm going to stop...don't know if that makes sense.

I hope that helped somewhat. :hug:

 

[Eternityswill]

Yes, it still creeps up on me from time to time.

Roughly one year ago, I was so bad that a bridge between my two front teeth completely disintegrated while I was asleep. Binging/purging 4 or 5 times just about every night was harsh, but I have come a long way and I hardly do it anymore. I have a pretty good diet, but there are time where I will eat something that I shouldn't have and I end up purging it. I seldom have binge/purge nights anymore though.