I'm on medication, seeing a therapist, my immediate family knows I've been depressed and suicidal, I'm exercising, weight lifting, eating healthier, sleeping better, but I really don't care about anything anymore. Last year I checked myself in to the emergency room twice; the first time I got sent to a therapist, the second time they basically said they had no room for me that night so I should go back home. I feel hopeless, empty, worthless, meaningless. I get incredibly dark and low and massively suicidal sometimes and just need to talk to somebody, I'll try and call anybody and they're either not there or just can't help me. It hits the worst when a girl I like doesn't like me back (which is every time). Honestly, does this stuff ever go away?