I was sexually abused from before I can remember, and raped when I was 10. I don't think I really knew how wrong it was until I was raped and had to make it stop. He was someone in my family which adds so much more to my shame. I've never actually spoken about it to anyone, but I'm nearly 23 and it has affected every relationship I've every been in and I still get flashbacks and nightmares and feel sick whenever I think about it. I just want to know if it gets better. If somehow I can move past all this without going through the whole 'acceptance' phase I see people go through on TV, having to talk about it. Especially with my friends and family. They can't know. Even if it would help my recovery. I just need to know if I can get past this? Someone tell me it's possible!