I've only ever attempted suicide once. I was 14 years old and I remember that a few girls I went to school with had seen me at the bus stop and decided they going to absolutely awful towards me still despite the fact it was the Summer holidays. I'd had a fight with all my friends about 6 months prior to this and they'd all either ignored me or made my life difficult by following me home or calling me names in the corridors. Anyhow my mum was at work and my sister was at my aunties house and I decided on impulse really to take some pills. I woke up in hospital with my mum standing over me and crying. The look on her face haunts me to this day. People were weird round me for months afterwards but the only thing that truly bothered me was that my mum was so upset. In the years following that first attempt I've thought about it almost everyday and I've always stopped myself because I see her face when I opened my eyes. Its actually the only thing that stops me when I start planning how to do it. Does anyone else think twice about doing it because of how people reacted the first time or is it just me?