people always say that everything will be okay.. that things will get easier or things will work out in the end.. and i should just hang on.. and never let the urge to kill myself get the best of me.. if it really does how come it seems i just feel worse everyday.. i do get brief moments of clarity of mind and bouts of good mood.. but generally things are awful.. it's like the world is totally against me.. it seems things never stop being fucked up.. i hate everything about my life..