This place is what makes me depressed the most. All my bad memories and experiences were from school. The reason why i am afraid of ppl, why i have problems communicating, is because i was never accepted at school. On a mall i would spend 15 minutes...15 MINUTES...building up the courage to order food from a fastfood, It's because i have to talk to someone. Thats how bad i am. I'm 18 right now and am on second year college. I've toughed out the miseries of having to stare down the floor the whole 8 hours i have to be in a classroom day after day. I've almost made it to the finish line! i feel like crying and kissing every1 i see everytime i think of graduation...of not having to go to the communism that is the classroom every day of my f*cking life. School to me is a prison you know, you cant really shout at someone even if they f*cking annoy you coz u have no friends. If you become enemies they will make ur life a living hell. you have no choice but to see them day after day after day, like in a prison cell. It's 3 am right now as i write this. I have school in a couple o hours. I mostly stay awake at night coz i wanna make every second of being at home last. It's where i feel safe, secure, and protected. I have my fingers-crossed right now hoping i would go back in one piece. If i do i'll start another thread. this site is kinda cool. thanx 4 listening.