When people think yourself a monster, does killing the monster change their mind?
They stopped caring and probably will always have that certain impression of you: the monster, the beast.
If they saw you suffer, does that mean you have paid the price?
If they saw you repent, does that mean you have paid the price?
Is every good deed you try to do, whether it's holding the door or taking in an orphaned child, seen as nothing because there is the overlapping feeling of being that kind of monster?
Will there finally be someone who says "Ok, now I see that he suffered the ultimate price and I can try to forgive him"?
And are you even allowed in Heaven if they are there? Wouldnt it not be Heaven to them if you were there?
How do you even try to live well when, to some, you'll always be not worthy of life?
They stopped caring and probably will always have that certain impression of you: the monster, the beast.
If they saw you suffer, does that mean you have paid the price?
If they saw you repent, does that mean you have paid the price?
Is every good deed you try to do, whether it's holding the door or taking in an orphaned child, seen as nothing because there is the overlapping feeling of being that kind of monster?
Will there finally be someone who says "Ok, now I see that he suffered the ultimate price and I can try to forgive him"?
And are you even allowed in Heaven if they are there? Wouldnt it not be Heaven to them if you were there?
How do you even try to live well when, to some, you'll always be not worthy of life?