i am so confused. of all the therapists i have seen, we have never really got anywhere and it was my fault. the thing is i CANT talk... not about me , not about my problems.. i just find it so difficult opening up. my head knows what i want to say and i can write it down, but if i actually want to speak, i get this horrible feeling in my chest and my throat, and i just cannot open up. sometimes, even though its very rare, when i open up a little bit to someone, i feel so crappy afterwards. it makes me even more depressed and angry with myself. so, when people say ' talk about it, it will make you feel better ' is that really the case ? because for me, it makes me feel so much worse. does anyone else ever feel like that ?