I am 20 abd this summer I am almost literally falling apart. I feel pathetic, like a loser because I have not got a job, running out of money and so on. Then I think about how I chose the wrong university, degree and how I am going to finish with little career prospects. This stuff has always been on my mind but this summer I have had very little to do and I am constantly thinking about it. Yesterday I had a job interview for a company I have worked with before. I knew what the role play was all going to be about but I flopped it. I have a job which starts in September, but today I find out it's low pay and I am basically not doing what I expected to do. Then I see my friend, 17, getting his own council flat, getting the job I applied and earning more money than me and for some reason this seriously annoys me. I am losing it, that's the only way to put it. Never been a happy person in recent years, but it was only a couple years ago I had a good job, making good friends, being promoted and so on and that has literally all gone. Sorry, needed to get this stuff of my chest.