I haven't self harmed in a very long time. nearing 3 years now. i just want to know, from others who may have recovered, does the desire to self harm every truly pass? I've reached a point in my life where I no longer want to die. I don't want to hurt either, but circumstances have made me feel that taking my own life would be selfish of me. I don't mean this to say that suicide is selfish in any way, just to be clear. But with my specific circumstances that's how I feel it would be for me. But I still want to bleed everyday. I don't. But I want to. I hope eventually the urge fades, I'll like to go a day without wondering what the inside of my arm looks like.