I don't know if this is the right forum to post on but I just kind of need to vent a little. Every time I'm in a car I always hope that some random speeding car will come out of nowhere and hit it. Regardless if other people are in the car with me or not. Sometimes when I take the train I hope some random thug will either shoot me or knife me. Lately I daydream about all this. It's really wishful thinking. I'm mean it's to the point where I don't care about anyone else, friends or family. To me they could all die too, just as long as I die. And as horrible as that sounds, I'm alright with it. It's really selfish I know, but there's nothing I can do. Even as I'm aware that it's bad to think such things, there's nothing that can stop it: not my heart or my conscience. Blah. I really don't want to be here. And I'm not saying that in an angsty, melancholy, sad way. I'm saying that with the up most honesty and peppy attitude. :unsure: /Rant.