I've had the majical touch that turns ordinary good things into complete crap and chaos. I strive to be perfect in my career and demand/get it from those around me. I'm sucessfull in what I do. I have failed in my relationship. I just realized what it was that she left me over, unconditional love. Yes, theonly way I realize it is because I discovered it. Oops!! to late!! Damn!! It's been a year since we split but atleast I understand it now!! I understand it so much so, that I know the people around me demand perfection from me and they think they get it, but it's a facade. My career is on the down slide. My relationship has ended. My children are almost grown. There's a big payday for them (insurance money). Bills out the wahzoo!! Unconditional love says i will never fail you. Well I've failed plenty. I'm bitter for demanding from people what I slowly bit by bit was failing at this whole time. I guess grace and mercy right now for the people around me is suicide. So, does what I'm going to do matter? NO. It'll be the most honest thing I've done.