don´t feel sorry for me when that happens, i did what i needed to do to make myself hope for a happier place. don´t look at me with regret or feeling sorry for what i did, don´t you realize will be too late? don´t you know that hurts me more? never say that you didn´t know i was having a hard life because i told you before that nothing will ever make me happy but you chose not to listen. Don´t go around bragging about our friendship, if you were my friend, my confident, my special someone you would have been there for me and i will never feel alone. all i wanted from you was a hello, i wanted you to care for me but i can´t force love, i can´t force you to care, i am nothing and nobody when it comes to keep a friendship or at least inspire some sympathy in other people, i am the one everyone is embarrased to have as a friend, i am the one that never gets a phone call or is never called to play with the other kids, i knew that since i was a little girl, since the first time i took out my school sissors and tried to cut my veins in front of everyone. you say you are tired of my complaints, tired of me making you suffer, tired of my life because to your eyes i have everything i can ask for, to you i am just a spoiled diva that wants to call your attention and make you humillate yourself because i cried for your love. you think i love to play victim, you think that my fears are just a product of my inmaturity and my stupidity, you don´t realize that i can have pain, that i can suffer and that i need you more than any other stupid thing in my life. the only thing you want from me as for now is distance, you don´t even want to hear me how good is for me to make a fool of myself and think that you might care sometime somehow about me. i can´t even sleep thinking about you, having nightmares where i lose you entirely, where i wake up with severe stomach pains and a terrible fear of losing you only to realize that i can´t lose what i never had. i was never loved but it was always my fault, i always tried hard to hold on the things that came to my life without realizing that for others i was just a game. i dont want to cause more pain in your life and i dont want you to cause more pain in mine, everytime i feel like this i keep on remembering your last words, leave me alone i cant deal with you anymore and you know what? i can not even deal with myself right now and i want to leave it all alone.