I can’t make myself speak up very much on chat or here about what’s going in with me, but if I do try to get support I’m usually more far gone than I would have been if I could have talked to someone earlier. I’m afraid to bare my feelings to people most of the time, some of that has to do with fear that I wont get a response... which is a fear that’s been realized quite a few times. It’s really hurtful in the moment, and I come away feeling worse.
I know it’s mostly my fault because I don’t speak up often, so people feel less inclined to talk to me. And when I do, I’m not able to make myself clear very well or express what’s happening to me. Or maybe they just don’t care..which I don’t like to believe, but maybe it’s true in my case. It’s hard not to think that when I usually have to be so persistent if I’m to get a response in a room full of people who are ready to make casual chat with each other, or offer support more readily to someone else than me.
Maybe I’m being unfair... I really don’t know. This is just how I’ve felt for most of the time I’ve been here. I feel like I’m intruding wherever I go. Save for a few, I think everyone feels this way about me. And if those few people aren’t around when I’m in a bad place, I’m on my own.
My life is hard right now...really awful. I’m really alone. I wish I could have made a better impression on people so that I could talk about things.
I really wish I could be apart of this community
I know it’s mostly my fault because I don’t speak up often, so people feel less inclined to talk to me. And when I do, I’m not able to make myself clear very well or express what’s happening to me. Or maybe they just don’t care..which I don’t like to believe, but maybe it’s true in my case. It’s hard not to think that when I usually have to be so persistent if I’m to get a response in a room full of people who are ready to make casual chat with each other, or offer support more readily to someone else than me.
Maybe I’m being unfair... I really don’t know. This is just how I’ve felt for most of the time I’ve been here. I feel like I’m intruding wherever I go. Save for a few, I think everyone feels this way about me. And if those few people aren’t around when I’m in a bad place, I’m on my own.
My life is hard right now...really awful. I’m really alone. I wish I could have made a better impression on people so that I could talk about things.
I really wish I could be apart of this community