I held out for as long as I could, but I'm really ready to be done with life. I don't really have anything to keep me going. I'm not good at anything; not assertive; no girlfriend because I'm scared to talk to women; haven't really had anything with the opposite sex in such a long time. I don't really enjoy anything except one thing...driving. Yesterday, after 16 years of driving without incident, I pulled in front of somebody I didn't see (STILL don't understand how I didn't), and got hit. My truck (something I loved very much) is most likely totaled. This was at the end of the day after I got my truck inspected and plates renewed. I was driving home for the night from getting a shirt tailored. So, I lost my truck of 10 years, perfect driving record, and I don't want to drive any more. Oh, and I was supposed to go back to work out of state in five days. All this, because I'm supremely stupid. I want to go now.