i have lost everything gambling. i am up to my eye balls in debt loan companies and with drug dealers. i have sliced my wrists open acouple of times now and sat on my chair bleeding. this hasn't really had much effect because i seem to always get caught, or i fall asleep and wake up fine. no more loan companies will give me money, so i can't pay nonone off. i will be getting my legs broken tomorrow over a 500 pound debt i owe for cocaine. i can't handle this so have been thinking about ending it properly this time. i have many sleeping pills given to me off the doctor aswell as my anti depresents, but have heard these dont really work in suiced they just make you ill. so i think i'm going to get "lost" in the mountains around my place tomorrow night. i've had all these problems since comming back from afghan last year, wish i never joinned the army now.