Done Properly

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by salty, Feb 3, 2011.

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  1. salty

    salty New Member

    i have lost everything gambling. i am up to my eye balls in debt loan companies and with drug dealers. i have sliced my wrists open acouple of times now and sat on my chair bleeding. this hasn't really had much effect because i seem to always get caught, or i fall asleep and wake up fine. no more loan companies will give me money, so i can't pay nonone off. i will be getting my legs broken tomorrow over a 500 pound debt i owe for cocaine. i can't handle this so have been thinking about ending it properly this time. i have many sleeping pills given to me off the doctor aswell as my anti depresents, but have heard these dont really work in suiced they just make you ill. so i think i'm going to get "lost" in the mountains around my place tomorrow night. i've had all these problems since comming back from afghan last year, wish i never joinned the army now.
  2. doityourself

    doityourself Well-Known Member

    Im sorry you feel this way, I know a little about gambling addiction, it takes over and Im sorry youve let it go so far. Can you take a deep breathe and realize it will probably take you as long to get out of this as it did to get in it.

    I know you can tell the casinos to put you on a no entry list, that will help out for starters.

    Next can you go to your VA and ask for some help, tell them what your feeling, how bad it really is?
  3. peacelovingguy

    peacelovingguy Well-Known Member

    I know men who had and have big gambling problems.

    Cocaine also - that is common and anyone from young teenagers to middle aged can have that issue.

    Gambling and using coke, that's a recipe for disaster.

    If you are in the UK, what help have you actually had since coming back?

    You need some help and should not be ashamed about it. Coke or gambling by itself is bad enough. You can get help by going to Gamblers Anon. Some might not go with the philosophy re the higher power but everyone can interpret that. The main thing is that being open with other gamblers is a revelation. My relative had an issue and found out that many men lost everything. Family, home, car and self esteem.

    Cocaine debt is worrying. Some of the people who sell it will charge interest and if you get coke on 'tic' then you cannot argue about quality and weight. What to do depends on how well you know this dealer. Maybe you know someone who knows someone who might have influence in these things. Ask family and friends, although I'm sure you've likely fell out with some.

    Breaking your legs will not make the cash come faster. Try to raise what you can and meet this dealer in a public place or his home (make sure someone knows you are going)

    Being an ex solider down on his luck might get you a pass for now. Most gangsters are usually not going to let a £500 debt come to broken legs. After all if you cannot walk or work then they will be waiting longer for the cash. But if you avoid them and they are serious enough then it makes things worse unless you turn up with the cash when you come out of hiding. Some will charge extortionate interest which is why you should NEVER get drugs on credit ever. Now you have - make this the last time - in fact, coke is a sh** drug anyway - always makes us feel worse in the long run. Plus in the UK its very weak so you need a lot to feel the basic coke high.

    If you have not had help with benefits - see some advisor in your area. They can get you help with grants perhaps loans, I get people help with getting grants that do not have to be paid back. Simply fill in a form, costs nothing but how you word it matters. Some charge for this but every area has free help and people who will fill in the many forms that often get on top of us.

    You got to get help with the gambling. As for cocaine, some would not tell their GP but this way you get help from local drug rehabilitation teams. Some are good and know the score inside out on both the drugs and the areas we live in which make drugs more of an attraction due to economic plight.

    Ex soldiers have help in associations. Try getting in touch with your regiment to see who in Civvy St can help you.

    At the very least you need some counselling and chance to get your ife together. Maybe some claim for higher benefits for medical reasons might help - but look upon it as a chance to get your life together not just extra cash to waste on coke and gambling.

    With some effort on your half you can be out of the woods and be looking at a different situation by the end of the year. Find a bit of romance or something. Find a nice girl who makes you feel good without having to spend your cash on the 3.45 at Newmarket or some shi*** UK coke and the daft company you will end up in whilst using.

    Hope some of this helps. Hope you don't mind me saying you need a bit of help because Civvy St is a minefield of its own sometimes.
  4. peacelovingguy

    peacelovingguy Well-Known Member

    Ah, I double posted on this one.

    Any-way's, good luck and try to deal with the problems one by one. That said it only takes a few minutes to book a GP appointment were you can deal with a couple of issues and it takes a minute to check out the GA meetings in your area.
  5. Cute_Angel_Xx

    Cute_Angel_Xx Account Closed

    Hey Salty,

    WOW, you've been through a lot in your past. Joining the army can be a big effect on many people and effect their life style I'm sorry you had to go through what you did. I can understand getting addicted to gambling as it has its 50 50 chances but you keep wanting to stop but you can't you can get councelling on this, theres a organization that helps people with there gambleing addiction maybe talk to your dr about it?
    Please talk to us more here and get supprt you have only joined :hug:
  6. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    Hi Salty. Is there anyone who can lend you 500 pounds so that you can pay back the loan shark and avoid getting your legs broken? You have to take control of the situation before things get worse.
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