Hi new here feeling very low. Just feel done with everything. Came to the realisation that I'm entirely alone and there is no one who really cares about whether I continue to live. I say that as I have no relatives (I was foster kid) and no friends only 1 but not very close.
I am married but husband has been playing a lot of weird games in front of his parents like trying to make me look bad or something but it made me realise he doesn't care about me. His parents have always disliked me and I feel like he plays up to it in front of them. It really makes me feel more alone and like I can't trust him.
I gave up alcohol 10 weeks ago and seeing things a lot clearer. Unfortunately things aren't good. Lockdown has of course made things worse. Also think I might be premenopause. Have also been in pain with hip problems and gynaecological issues. Lots of bits coming to a head. Unsure how to continue. Don't like feeling sorry for myself but past the stage of pull myself together.
Husband hasn't noticed I have just been in bed not eating he's just downstairs watching TV. Always had anxiety/depression but this seems different weirdly no self loathing. I am going crazy?
Thank you for reading this.
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I am married but husband has been playing a lot of weird games in front of his parents like trying to make me look bad or something but it made me realise he doesn't care about me. His parents have always disliked me and I feel like he plays up to it in front of them. It really makes me feel more alone and like I can't trust him.
I gave up alcohol 10 weeks ago and seeing things a lot clearer. Unfortunately things aren't good. Lockdown has of course made things worse. Also think I might be premenopause. Have also been in pain with hip problems and gynaecological issues. Lots of bits coming to a head. Unsure how to continue. Don't like feeling sorry for myself but past the stage of pull myself together.
Husband hasn't noticed I have just been in bed not eating he's just downstairs watching TV. Always had anxiety/depression but this seems different weirdly no self loathing. I am going crazy?
Thank you for reading this.
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