Howdy all, I'm done with the whole 'support' structure - all I hear people saying when I tell them I'm feeling intensely suicidal is ::sigh:: you'll make it through ::sigh:: - or it isn't that bad - or just completely ignoring (perhaps they think it's for attention). My case worker completely ignored my financial difficulties - meaning I'll be too poor to have a case worker - meaning her hands are now clean from my blood and death). I have two sure fire methods - 100% lethality - and the means - accessible tonight. My psychiatrist simply loaded me up on meds, my parents don't give a fuck anyway (would be a relief to them). People here do the best they can and I applaud and thank them for their efforts (if only they were psychiatrists/parents/RL support system) - problem is they can't solve these real issues confronting me (nor would I expect them to - many are in the same situation I am). No OD's or cutting (note: these methods are guaranteed to fail unless your some kind of superhuman masochist [survival instinct after several hundred cuts or medical problems, e.g. ODing]) - needless to say, my method is sure fire given I can become inebriated enough to overcome any survival instinct (I have plenty of resources to inebriate me to that level). Speaking of which I have to go get booze - later.