I know ur hurting hun! im one of the people that has told u to hold on, and i wish more than anything there was someone else i could do, something i could tell u to cure to straight away, but unfortunatly it doesnt work that way. Time is really what is needed! but u dont just have to sit bac and watch things crumble around u, as the person above me said u need to talk to a councillor and get on some medication, i kno its hard for u but there must b a way! Ill do all i can to help u!
Please take care, u kno im always here for u!