Ive been trying to talk lately, but it seems like i make a friend, but after a few days they give replies with no emotion, like i have to force them to talk. Im sorry if i bother you, if im in the way. Ill go, im done now. Im sorry. I write to you, I try to talk, I have such a hard time, but I try so much. You seem bored with me, only faint replies are given I feel like im forcing each word, why do you feel such? what do I do wrong? how come I'm not better? I dont understand anymore I just want to give up. I would try to talk, people make it seem like such a chore though, I just dont understand. why is it so tough? I'll leave you be, I'll go away, I promise, I'm gone now. I'll live on, or I'll die soon, it doesnt matter anymore, not when, nor how.