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Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by DatAlgorithm, Apr 26, 2016.

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  1. DatAlgorithm

    DatAlgorithm Well-Known Member

    My dreams are crushed. My life is over. I am sick to death of being a hideous zit-backed midget failure of a waste of life. I will never forgive my parents for bringing me into this world. Especially my loser of a father I had (RIP but still.) My parents should've aborted me, thrown my fetus in the trash and set it on fire. Life is not a blessing... it is a celestial chore. Life is only a blessing in rare RARE cases... I have nobody to talk to and everything I own is getting broken to the point of being unfixable... my car, my computer, my body... everything.

    I'm finally ready to die. I have no intentions on even living to see 30. I can't wait to finally be freed from this all.
     
  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    What happened? Why do you feel like your dreams are crushed?
     
  3. princessofelegance

    princessofelegance Well-Known Member

    I can't give advice i'm rubbish at it. But hey Im here if you need to talk :) Your not alone here. Remember that xx
     
  4. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I am sorry you are feeling so down. You can see all the negativity but what about the positivity? What are your positive qualities, everyone has some if you look deep enough! Hope you begin to feel better soon x
     
  5. DrownedFishOnFire

    DrownedFishOnFire Quieta non movere

    What you can do from this point foward is not to place blame on the past. you're here in the now for a reason.

    a lot of successes in this life is not seen by series of all screwups and mistakes behind them..all of that blood sweat and tears... you can pick up and try again in your dream. I believe in you.
     
  6. ThePhantomLady

    ThePhantomLady Safety and Support SF Supporter

    I'm sorry you're feeling so bad

    Do you have anyone who could help you move forward, and focus on bettering your future? I'm sorry your past was bad, I truly am. You can not change the past sadly... but you can change how you look at it, and you can always work on bettering the future. What do you want to do? What would make you happy?

    Keep fighting, you do deserve to live and to live a good life!
     
  7. DatAlgorithm

    DatAlgorithm Well-Known Member

    Well I can't 'cause I dream of being an actor, which is the ONLY reason I haven't up and killed myself yet instead of like how I should've died at 17 instead of my dad and I keep getting fucking zits on my back (and face from time to time) because my idiotic weak-ass pushover father decided to bring me into this world when he had that problem and not finding a fucking SOLUTION for it first along with being a loser who never even TRIED going for his true dreams, until it was too late and then he sadly died from a stroke. It's like WHAT THE FUCK? What if, oh gee by an offchance, I grew up wanting to be an actor, a model, a swimmer, bodybuilder whatever where I'd have times where I'd have to go shirtless and get fucking humiliated by the world because it's easy enough to humiliate me because I'm a male, a weaking and practically a midget alone? Nah, this planet isn't already a festering smoldering overpopulated polluted New World Order shithole, let's bring one more child into this world and shame him for having good taste and wanting things he can't ever obtain because he's also practically a fucking retard even though we we couldn't do the same either. If we don't have more than one child, Big Brother will see that as doubleplusungood and we won't inspire joy-joy feelings in our families or keep up with the Jonses! I'm sorry but I HATE when MORONS (like my parents) who have/had no real recession-proof skills, no hustles, no talents, no smarts, no good genes, not even any good work ethics for planetary indentured servitude or sense of humor not only bring children into this hateful shitty hyper-competitive world but get SO SHOCKED when they can't achieve anything! Like my father... who only passed half-ass efforts, bad skin, porn addiction, depression and the This doesn't just go out to the Section-8 welfare crowd, but ANY weaklings out there! Worse yet, they depend on GOD to take care of it all... no, I'm sorry, you don't want to hear this, but god DOES NOT CARE! He's like a spotter at the gym who runs off all the way to the other side of the gym when I'm shaking like crazy on the bench press and act like it's all my fault and gets pissed off at me when the weight crushes me and the bar smashes my throat.

    The only positive thing I can say about myself is that I caught on and REFUSE to bring children into this world. I'd rather not have children at all and have my lineage end than knock up a random woman I don't even like as a friend only to end up with a divorce and child support payments just because every other man does it. I'd rather die from suicide at 30 with my dreams intact than live 70+ years dead inside since broken dreams risk destroying a person as much as a broken heart (which can actually be fatal... look it up.) Life is so overrated. At least I have less than 2 years to go before I hit 30 and finally get this life over with.

    Again, delete this post if you must... I know how the truth is just too much for some people to handle... believe me, I've been there myself before my grand disillusionment of sorts.
     
  8. DrownedFishOnFire

    DrownedFishOnFire Quieta non movere

    Totally see where you're coming from. Good luck moving foward
     
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