I've been thinking a lot about suicide lately, and I've decided that it's time for me to leave. I should have died 4 years ago, but I guess it's better to do it now. I'm not going to do this because of depression, and not really because of the voices (though "they" are thrilled with my decision). I'm going to do this because I don't want to live anymore. I've been living for others for the last 6 years, because I don't want to hurt people, but I have to think about what I want now. My friends and family might get hurt, but there's no one in my life that won't get over it and forget me. Many of them won't even notice that I'm gone. "They" have decided on how I'm going to do it, and I agree that it's a good method. The only thing left for me to do is to figure out where and when. Where is not really important, it's not like I'm going to tell anyone where I'll be. When is a big dilemma. It has to be this weekend or in 2 weeks. If I end it this weekend, it'll finally be over. :smile: But if I wait 2 more weeks I'll be able to see my friends again, I can write a long letter to my parents and I can throw away everything they don't need of my things. :unsure: I'm not writing this because I want to be saved, but I need to get it out of my head.