I am done. I can't do this anymore. I can't. I've tired. honest to God I have tried. tried everything. nothing makes it better. and now this...shit... and i can't even talk about it... it is my secret. my pain. i live with it every day. i see it every day. i deal with it every second of my life and yet i can not talk about it to a single soul. i can't live with it anymore. i've dealt with alotta crap in my life. a ton of shit. bad stuff. abuse rape addcitions...and more... but this is too much for me to take. this is too much for me to handle. i can't. all that other shit was stuff i did to myself . this is different. i did it to myself and it effected someone else ........ i am not able to cope with any of this anymore. i can't.