Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by itmahanh, Nov 28, 2008.

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  1. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    Everything in my life is so wrong that it makes the thoughts all right. I cant hear anything but them anymore. I'm done.
  2. Izziebabystar

    Izziebabystar Well-Known Member

    babe seriously please dont do this
    there are alot of people that will miss you
    i am one of them
    youve got so much to live for
    i know it doesnt seem like it now
    i know it seems hopeless and crap
    but its not things do get better
    and yeh i know what can i say im only 17 but at the end of the day age it just a number
    ill be here for you every step of the way
    please hun reconsider
    the fact youve posted shows you want help no matter how small a fact it is
    if you need me im here for you no matter what
  3. nagisa

    nagisa Chat & Forum Buddy Staff Alumni

    Carla, you can get through this. You've done it before and you can now. I have faith in you. I believe that you can overcome all those thoughts. Please, if you do have anything planned, reconsider. I don't want to lose you. :hug: :hug:
  4. Xian

    Xian Well-Known Member

    Psalm 88

  5. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Please Carla, try your best to hang in there. You are loved by many here, including me. You're a very special person and a great mother too. Please don't give up hun. :hug:
  6. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Carla change your focus. Instead of thinking about everything that is wrong in your life, look for what is right. You have survived so much. Don't give in now. :hug:
  7. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi Carla,

    I'm sorry your feeling so low again:sad: Don't listen to those thoughts hun, listen to the thoughts that are telling you that you can get through this like you did before :hug:
  8. Oak

    Oak Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    No hun, the thoughts are sending you a wrong message. Please dont listen to the throughts and voices. They just put doubt in your mind. You are strong and those things will only last a moment. Please talk to us, come and lean on us that care about you. You can pm me any time hun.

    best thoughts
    grany xx
  9. shazzer

    shazzer Well-Known Member

    Please don't do anything to harm yourself you have so many friends here wanting to support you use us. Don't listen to those thughts not easy I know but please try we all want you to be safe :hug:
  10. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    I'm trying so hard to fight. To make it through this yet one more time. But I know that I can't. People say that others post because they are somehow holding out for help or whatever. Well I realize that I think I am holding on because I dont want to disappopoint anyone. And that fucking sucks. And the thoughts are finally telling me the truth. That means that I'm putting everyone before my own needs yet again. Cuz where is everyone when I need them? The last couple of days have been sheer Hell and I'm alone. I'm NOT strong like everyone seems to think I am. I'M NOT!!!!! This has been the hardest fight yet and for what? People seem to think they know me but they are so wrong. I'm a weakling, I'm alone, I'm scared and I just want to die! And I dont see anything wrong with that anymore. The sun will come up tomorrow and nothing will every change, not for me, it hasnt and it wont. Let me go please!
  11. pit

    pit Well-Known Member

    Please hand on, hun. How do you know you'll feel the same five days from now?
  12. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Carla, come on msn sometimes. I can't go into the chatroom since I'm still under moderation and can't send private messages. Log onto msn so we can chat. Please don't give up hun. You're stronger than you think. :hug:
  13. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    Damn it I tried, am trying I dont even know anymore. Everything is so confusing and hurts so bad. Enough please. It has to stop NOW!
  14. shazzer

    shazzer Well-Known Member

    Carla I am sorry things are still so hard for you I wish I could say something to help but in all honesty I feel the same I just want out but I'm trying to hold on what to I don't know cos nothing helps take the thoughts away but please do try I don't want you to go :hug:
  15. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hey Carla If I am to stay and not commit then you need to stay also. I know exactly how you feel. You care about people that is a big positive for you to hang on to. If you want to chat personally My MSN address, So please feel free to contact me anytime. I have made the decision that I am going back to the hospital yet again. This time will be different because<METHODS> they will finally beleive me when I tell them I am not right. Stay with us and contact me anytime. I usually sleep maybe three hours a day and two hours a night so I am usually around on the forum some where!!Take Care and Stay Safe!~Joseph~
  16. Starlite

    Starlite Senior Member


    I am so sorry to know you are in such pain. I know saying im sorry doesn't help much, but I care and so do others, i don't have any answers to give you, but i can offer you an ear to listen!

    If you need some extra support, please don't hesitate to contact me, i am here if you need to talk. You can also add me to messenger if you want to,
  17. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni

    Stop fighting.
    I would be tired too if every morning I woke up envisioning a fight that must be won. A battle that must be fought with my depression, to come out the winner every night simply by being alive, only for another fight to start the next morning.
    Stop fighting. The depression cannot win, because it's not who you are. When you stop the fight, you can relax. If you give up, depression won't win, because it's not a real part of yourself.
    Give up, and you will find yourself.
    Don't kill yourself. You are at the brink of being found.
  18. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    I "found" myself just a few minutes ago. I realize I'm nothing but a dinosaur and my kind died off years ago. I dont fit anymore. So it's me and my thoughts and I think we are pretty much done. Sorry.
  19. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    Could someone just please close this thread. It's pointless.
  20. LenaLunacy

    LenaLunacy Well-Known Member

    :hug: Itmahanh. Your not a dinosaur >< You have lots of people who care bout you, your a great contributer to the forum! Please don't give up the fight yet, kayy :) Pm me if you need to talk.
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