You know, if you do this, you will absolutely devastate someone. It doesn't matter if you don't think so; someone out there loves you, and wants to help you get better. I'm one of those people. Please just message me, or anyone. Heck, call a crisis hotline; please. We; I, every other good person on this earth; want you alive.
edit: Of course random people came, we/they all care. ^^