Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by MoAnamCara, May 2, 2011.

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  1. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    today i want to end it all. i am sick of it all. sick of people, of cancer, of trying to live and getting nowhere.

    i just can't do this. i can't.

    but who cares
  2. kirstyx

    kirstyx Member

    I care...

    I'm new on here don't really know how to work this but I'm here if you want to talk

    I'm sorry your feeling so bad

  3. icequeen

    icequeen Well-Known Member

    well for one...i do.... :console:

    can you phone a crisis line...spill it out to a real voice, sometimes it helps...cry cry and cry some more...get the tension out.

    if you go, what will happen to your will she feel knowing or thinking that she pushed you to this, you are a better than this.

    i wish i could follow my own advice, but go for a jog, run up and down stairs a dozen times, wallow in the try and distract yourself, and it will pass...long enough to get you through another did for me yesterday and it can for you today...

  4. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    Thank you for caring when it feels like no one else does.

    bloody tears need to stop this afternoon.

    I won't do anything, not while she is alive, I wouldnt' do that to her.

    But I feel SO trapped, just trying to hold off a panic attack right now.

    thanks, you take care.
  5. dazzle11215

    dazzle11215 Staff Alumni

    i wish i could make it all better.

    all i can do is send a big hug, and let you know i'm thinking of you today.

    i care.
  6. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    Dazzle -

    Thank you, too.

    Trying to hold it all together this evening.
  7. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    How are you holding up sweetie?

    **gentle hugs**
  8. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    Thanks Kali - am holding. More worried about someone else right now.

    How are you tonight?
  9. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    I can finally sit and type so not doing too bad. Still quite weak, no food very little to drink since friday. Will take a bit to get some energy. ...and thank you. **hugs**

    someone here?
  10. plshelpme

    plshelpme Well-Known Member

    hope you're hanging in there!!!
  11. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    Thanks plshelpme

    am still holding which is good...

    thank you all for your concern

  12. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    I am so sorry everyone, but I need some help tonight please.

    Its like a viscious circle and I hate this. I have to stay here but its so difficult. Am starting to have panic attack and am trying to distract but its not working tonight.

    Am scared of myself.
  13. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Hi., have the panic attacks eased off?
  14. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    They come in waves, like my thoughts. Was okay for about an hour and now my mind is again at top speed, yet I am exhausted. Getting so frustrated with myself.
  15. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Try something vigorous like exercising, it might help clear your mind.
  16. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist


    I've been cleaning and organizing drawers & similar.

    don't worry, thanks.
  17. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    good job :) stay safe x
  18. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I care too hun hope you are feeling a little better hugs
  19. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

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  20. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    typing this is as much as I can reach out today

    for whatever its worth
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