well for one...i do.... :console:
can you phone a crisis line...spill it out to a real voice, sometimes it helps...cry cry and cry some more...get the tension out.
if you go, what will happen to your OH...how will she feel knowing or thinking that she pushed you to this, you are a better than this.
i wish i could follow my own advice, but go for a jog, run up and down stairs a dozen times, wallow in the tub...music...just try and distract yourself, and it will pass...long enough to get you through another day....it did for me yesterday and it can for you today...
:pinkrose::hug: