don't be alarmed

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  1. lurktheshadows

    lurktheshadows Well-Known Member

    this is . . . a rant in the guise of fragmented stream-of-conciousness shitty poetry, I just wrote it in ten minutes and I refuse to edit anything (if I do, it will be erased)
    this was written for some friends..and me; a fused identity:

    those two days squirming
    like a wounded, naked child
    you marveled at my reduction
    monitored the time in my reactions
    did you yearn to feed me or seduce me?
    a parasitic pedophile raping
    my own naïve infantile ideas
    in order to infest my neurons
    with your disgusting dreams

    the infiltration
    the implantation manifested in peculiarity
    I berated bruises, shoving maggots in old wounds
    as if to reduce this healing, maturing body
    to return to you, rotten and prepared
    all for you, this putrefied mass of flesh
    spotted and inflamed just like my infant
    body flailing in your arms
    my beloved

    and these words are for the two of me
    dissected by your lack of clarity
    one is apparent
    the other concealed
    beneath this wooden shell
    you carved of me
    a monument to your psychosis

    yes, I’m the one whose scars enshroud
    her like shadowless cages
    the one splayed out on her bed
    a heavy, barren sea-star
    waiting for you to enter her
    because at least then
    that must mean
    you love her

    at least then she will be replenished
    wet and waving in an ocean
    of forgiving sheets


    birds carve holes in trees to house their children
    you carve holes in children to house your suffering

    now the sap is descending
    and no one dares touch the viscous trap
    of my body

    I remain complacent in the solitude
    for somewhere still, in these perforated organs
    I know I don’t need anyone but you
    and I’ll wait
    even for the memories to arise
    to invent themselves
    to eviscerate me beneath your touch

    this is a reverse inheritance
    my soul is yours
    this body quaking
    these thoughts virulent
    I beg you
    I beg you
    I beg you

    deface me beyond recognition
  2. me myself and i

    me myself and i Account Closed

    I wish you could see how lovely you really are Deer, your poem saddened me so so much.
    Not sure when i last read something that made my heart break so much, i hope that oneday your self loathing turns to loving, that another comes into your life that loves you for who you are, not what they can take from you.
    You know im around if you want to talk to me.

    Pete x
  3. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    :hug: Your poem is amazing. So sad, so full of pain, but so well written.
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    hope all your pain will one day be replaced with peace and happiness h ugs
  5. Louis03

    Louis03 Well-Known Member

    Heavy thoughts and nicely written. I admire you for being able to express them.
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