why bother..saw shrink today, he's taken me off anti-depressants because he fears i will use them to OD...he said it was that or hospital..and then sent me packing with please book a crisis appt for 4 weeks time...well fuck everything. Withdrawals from Anti-d's, oh fantastic, call samaritians if I get suicidal thoughts again...of course...and think of the people you will hurt if you kill urself..erm nobody...oh yes, that's why I'm here, living and breathiing not for me but for every other fucker in the world. forget it, I try, I tell the truth to him and what happens sweet FA...well, next time if he ever see's me it will be in a morgue. fuck it. I've had it with fighting, fighting for what???? the hope that tomorrow maybe different, I don't think so..it won't be different, the same shit, just different day..NO MORE.